“Scratch” A Short Story

Droplets of liquid clear to form the word Scratch. My mother’s smile pokes through the red. I hear a scratching sound coming from the bed frame. I bolt for the door. It’s locked.

Jenny Dean (Scratch)
Photography by Nexus Of Generation

Scratch

“Hear that Charlie?” I question my brother jokingly.

“What are you talking about?” he quivers.

“You know, that scratching sound” I say, scratching the wooden bed frame harder.

“Stop that! I know it’s you” whimpered Charlie.

I decide to quit being a pest and let Charlie sleep.

Moonlight shines through the window of the orphanage and I let my thoughts roam. I don’t remember my parents well, but I think of them often. They were murdered one year after Charlie was born, stabbed to death and etched with the word Scratch and 3 and 4 across their chests. An open casket wasn’t an option, for there were remnants left by the uncaptured killer. The only motive the police could think up was my father’s inherited fortune. Too bad I won’t see the money until I’m an adult. Honestly, I wouldn’t be surprised if Madame Woodrow stole it for herself.  Though they’re gone, my father’s green eyes are worn by me, and Charlie bears by mother’s pale skin. I keep a photo of my smiling newlywed parents on my nightstand. I’ll probably never have happy parents again.

I’m putting the photograph on the nightstand as something catches my eye.

“Scratch” is written on the back of the photograph in red ink. Bloody hell, I think to myself. Who put that there? I glance around for signs of a prankster but only see the soft breathing of young boys. I look again at the photograph but the words are gone. The moonlight is playing tricks on my tired eyes.

“Hugo! Get up! Today’s the day!” shouts Charlie excitedly.

I’m only two years older, but I have much less faith than Charlie.

“Alright, I’m coming mate” I sigh tiredly and head downstairs for breakfast.

“‘You two are so lucky’ grumbles Oliver, ‘I’ve been here for  fifteen years and don’t see any prospective parents knocking down my door’”.

“I may be a redhead, but I’m not a blimey stepchild” ranted Oliver. Oliver is my best friend, mostly because of his sarcastic humor.

Charlie is downing a bowl of Cheerios when Madame Woodrow walks into the dining room. She has voluminous brown hair and spectacles that rest on the bridge of her pointed cartilage. They’ll never fall off with her nose turned up the way it always is.

“How many birds do you think have mistaken her hair for their nest?” Oliver whispers in my ear. I spit coffee, soaking the white tablecloth.

“‘Hugo Wallace!’ shouts Madame Woodrow smacking me up the side of my head ‘where are your manners boy?’” I gulp the rest of my rudeness in one swallow.

“Sorry madam,” I lie, laughing internally.

“Take care of this mess and get cleaned up. Your prospective parents will be here shortly,” snaps the hag as she bustles from the room.

“I can’t wait! What do you think they’re like? I bet they’re spectacular! Do you think they’ve got a puppy? Maybe we’ll have our own bedrooms!” rambles Charlie. I decide to play along and let the dreamer dream.

We are sitting in Madame Woodrow’s office and the lights are off because she’s frugal. The overcast clouds send an ominous glow into the room. I’ve learned to lower my standards so I don’t become disappointed. Charlie’s eyes glow with excitement as if the mundane wall color is his favorite. The doorknob creaks open and in comes Madame Woodrow with two unfamiliar faces. I have seen beautiful people before, but not like this. The woman is tall and thin, wearing a sleek black robe and leather gloves. Her perfect curls frame her mile-high cheekbones. The man is even taller than her and has a jawline that could cut glass. He has jet black hair and wears a sports coat. He pulls out a golden pocket watch and looks up with a smile. They both give off an aura of happiness and I start to feel hopeful for the first time since I can remember. As they take a seat, I notice they both have unnaturally bright, blue eyes. The woman extends her hand to me.

“‘My name is Sarah Scriver,’ she chatters excitedly, ‘We have been waiting so long to see you.’” Her husband nods and shakes our hands causing content to show on Charlie’s face.

“My name is Brendon” he beamed with charm. I’ve never seen two people so charismatic.

“There are just a few questions we have to get to know you two” says Mr. Scriver.

“Do you like swimming? We do live on Haweswater. I hope you don’t mind” says Mr. Scriver.

“Oh boy I-I love the water!” stammers Charlie with so much excitement I thought water was going to pour out of his eyes.

“That wouldn’t be a problem” I reply coolly, hiding my excitement to avoid getting my hopes up.

“‘I hope you two like to eat’ giggled Mrs. Scriver ‘I love baking.’” This just keeps getting better.

“Brendon is a lawyer and I work for Ralph Lauren’s British line” says Mrs. Scriver. My mouth drops to the floor. This is unreal. Why wouldn’t perfect people like this want to have their own perfect children? I decide that’s not exactly an appropriate question to ask. Madame Woodrow asks Charlie and me to step out of the room while they finish some paperwork. Mrs. Scriver is closing the door when I catch a glimpse of red light on her hand. A beautiful red ruby rests between two diamonds on a gold wedding band. I look into her eyes and for the shortest moment I see an a flash of red again.

“Scratch” says a hissing voice in my ear.

“What’s that, Charlie?” I ask turning around to face my brother. Charlie is ten feet away sitting on his palms in a wooden chair humming to himself. The door shuts gently. What was that? I think back to the word written on my parents’ photograph. My excitement about a new family gets the best of me and I ignore the sound. After impatiently waiting, Madame Woodrow opens the door.

“It was a pleasure meeting you Mr. and Mrs. Scriver” I smiled, my eyes glued to Mrs. Scriver’s ring.

“You can call me Mom” replies Mrs. Scriver her blue eyes sparkling.

“And I’ll be Dad” Mr. Scriver joined in. I see a glint of red in his glasses for a moment, but I blink and it’s gone. Charlie jumps into Mrs. Scriver’s arms, and I see red again in her eyes, only for a moment. That coffee mustn’t be working I think to myself.

“‘Pack your bags children’ says Mrs. Woodrow ‘we haven’t got a month of Sundays.’” She can’t wait for her tablecloths to stay white. I hurry upstairs with Charlie and we’re ready within minutes. It doesn’t take long to pack when you have nothing. I look at my parents’ photograph. They would be happy we are going to such a nice family.

“You have to cause extra trouble for me okay? And we have to write each other” I say to Oliver.

“You bet mate” he replies shaking my hand. Even with rain pouring from the sky, I can see clearly the fancy car in the driveway as my foot hits the pavement.

“Hop in kids” says Mr. Scriver gesticulating to the Bentley. I think I’m in heaven.

The ride is two hours long but Charlie and the countryside scenery keep my mind occupied.

Mrs. Scriver pulls down the mirror of the passenger seat to apply lipstick, smudging it when the tires hit a pothole. She rolls her eyes and in the corner of the mirror I see a quick red flash.

“Is there something in your eye?” I ask daringly.

“Oh no dear” she replies sweetly, leaving me puzzled.

We pull into a long driveway and I gaze at the perfect white house surrounded by meticulous landscaping. Sunshine glints off the lake like a mirror and nearly blinds me. I walk up each step of the grand staircase like a prince. Charlie runs full speed ahead to the mahogany door.

“‘Welcome home,” says Mrs. Scriver. I smell roses and fresh bread. Fine wines rest on display in the kitchen. Charlie steps off the mat and leaves a footprint on the floor causing the red to glow again in Mrs. Scriver’s eyes.

Charlie runs and I amble up the staircase to find two empty bedrooms at opposite ends of a corridor. Charlie has already slammed the door to his room and is probably unpacking his luggage. I open my door to find a perfectly made bed with a fresh red rose on the pillow. There is a tea set on the nightstand and a large window overlooking Haweswater. I set my luggage on the bed and unlock the buckles. My parents’ photo is gone. ‘I thought I put it on top,’ I think to myself. I feel a draft behind me and the door slams shut. I look up and notice the rose has turned to what looks like red liquid, seeping into the white pillowcase. The dripping stem hangs off the bed and steers my eyes to a pool on the floor. Resting in the red liquid is the photograph I hold so dearly to my heart. Droplets of liquid clear to form the word Scratch. My mother’s smile pokes through the red. I hear a scratching sound coming from the bed frame. I bolt for the door. It’s locked.

“Charlie!” I shout at the top of my lungs. All I hear is the slow clicking of heels. The door opens and Mrs. Scriver is a skyscraper holding Charlie’s hand. Her eyes are shining bright red and her ring is glowing. Charlie is shaking as if he’s holding the hand of the devil himself.

“Tea time dear” says Mrs. Scriver. I don’t understand what’s going on.

“Who are you?!” I demand.

“Your mother of course” she replies casually. I have no choice but to follow her downstairs.

Mr. Scriver walks into the kitchen covered in dirt as Mrs. Scriver pours tea.

“It’s all ready honey” said Mr. Scriver kissing his wife on the cheek. Her eyes flash again when she glances at the dirt he tracked in. There is menace hidden in their perfect features.

Charlie sips the tea nervously and I leave mine to turn cold. After Charlie finishes off his drink Mrs. Scriver suggests we go for a walk. I silently grab the Bentley’s keys off the hanger and nod to Charlie. As soon as we hit the bottom step of the staircase, Charlie and I run toward the car. Before I can reach the door handle, I feel a sharp pain on my forearm. The letter s appears etched in my skin. Charlie screams in pain as b becomes etched on his forearm. The Scrivers walk to the car and grab us with immense force.

“‘I said we are going for a walk,” scolds Mrs. Scriver, eyes glaring red now.

Charlie and I are marched to the backyard. I see a hole in the ground next to ten stones, all numbered in order and carved with one word each. I see stones 3 and 4, both with the word scratch.

Mr. Scriver throws Charlie into the hole. The letter u appears on his arm. Charlie is frantically trying to climb higher but cannot move.

“Bury him Hugo” orders Mrs. Scriver.

“You’re out of your minds!” I shout. The Schrivers link hands and their rings shine a blinding red. Sharp pains shoot through my arm; they’ve finished their idea of calligraphy. Shot is etched in my skin bubbling with blood. Demonic power takes control of my body and I pick up the shovel. My vision is gone but I hear Charlie screaming, as salty tears soak the writing in my flesh.

The screams cease, and I hear one last sentence before a bullet penetrates my heart.

“‘Who’s the redhead dear?’ Mrs. Scriver asks her husband, ‘Oliver I believe.’”

“REDMERCEDES” Dance Choreography

Link to full dance YouTube video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ybH0WsHaTgU&t=2s
Two kids
Half broken phone
Call me ranch cause I be dressin’
Tut tut
Blurry focus
Pound it

REDMERCEDES Reflection

For years I’ve been inspired by YouTube dancers of all walks of life. My passion for dance actually began with YouTube after I watched the movie Step Up. I would spend hours on YouTube learning how to dance to hip hop, which is why I decided to create my own YouTube dance video. I chose the song REDMERCEDES by Aminé because it has a constant tempo and it flows well with hip hop style dancing. I worked with Eric Wescott on this project because I wanted to try working with a dancer from a different background. I have learned dance on YouTube and in studio, but Eric has not been professionally taught dance. At first I thought Eric would struggle keeping up with choreography, but I found him to catch on extremely fast and he even choreographed. We chose to use the high school as our main film setting because of convenience, but it worked out well because of the effects we implemented. After my first experience with film on my last project, I found that lighting is a key element. We used both front and back lights to create shadows and show all our moves the way we wanted. Using Final Cut, we were able to create a Ken Burns effect that makes the viewer feel like part of the dance. Unlike my last project, I did not try to create a deeper meaning of life or a lesson for the viewer to take away. I simply wanted to create a cool video about something I love that wows an audience. Eric and I used outfits to our advantage and kept a theme of red, black, and white. It was perfect timing when I got a metallic gold jacket as a gift because as soon as I saw it, I knew it was meant for this video. Eric and I were filming after school and noticed an outdoor light that resembled a street light. We were able to give rural maine a different look with the night time scene, outfits, and lighting. The batting cage was my favorite place to film because of the darkness and mirror effects we captured. The crisp editing effect we added made the blackpoint darker and really put the focus on our moves. The mirror with tutting we added in the batting cage was a great way to break up the scene before switching to the final part of the dance. We ended the dance back at the gym where we began the story, which was simply two gym kids who wanted to dance. At the end we added extras in the background and only the most observant will notice Tyler Peters struggling to bench the bar. Overall I enjoyed making this project and I was so happy to finally have a YouTube video like the ones I used to learn from. This project has taught me that I should work out technical  difficulties before showing my projects. The computer would not play the audio to the video which was embarrassing, but it was okay because I was able to show it on a different screen. I enjoyed dancing and filming this piece, but I must say that my favorite part was editing. I’ve expanded my knowledge of the arts with REDMERCEDES, and hope to use it to my advantage in the future.

“Simply Not Simple” Slam Poem

Link to full Slam Youtube Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1LxgW8wOIJo&t=2s
Empathetic Energies

When a lifetime is a blink how can you be content standing until your eyes dry out?

Savannha Brown

I don’t know what depression feels like

I picture it as a twisting and turning I picture it as a twisting and turning

An intermininet strife

Like a shower of bullets

Perhaps a raining parade of bad days

Or a feeling of this simply couldn’t can’t shouldn’t

Be happening to me

Why to me?

I’d rather be free

That was my first impression

Of the meaning of the word depression

The final answer to my question

What else could it mean

Other than a deep recession?

The closest distance between two people is a story

After making some friends I found a common allegory

People are sad

It might sound bad but people are just so sad

It most likely stems from something like a problem with a dad

Or a situation that was out control

Something that made them mad

Time and time again until it just turned sad

Or something like a comrade turning on them

But all these dead flowers come from the same stem

I’ve learned that these are just the roots

To the beginning of the end

The end

What a time of uncertainty

Certainly it will come but when?

When the time is right

Is the answer from some

When you lose the next fight

The end could be the outcome

But giving meaning to why we go

Has a way of working the world into ebbs and flows

A network of coincidences has crystallized

Into a spider web of truths and lies

Lies

Are all they see through the kaleidoscope of what the people feed

Their children

People wonder why they always seem to give in

And die  

A toy consisting of tiny mirrors and pieces of colored paper

Is stolen from their children at a young age

Logic is an eraser

Forcing them to foster rage

A child raising a demon

Running mile after mile with this thing they have to feed

It grows larger and darker

And eventually bites the hand that feeds them

Another petal falling from the stem

Observation of body language is very helpful

The image of a person who never sleeps is typical

Messy hair don’t care right?

T-shirt slogans don’t really mean anything

But have you ever asked the girl with the t-shirt slogan how she’s doing?

You’re in class with her

She laughs everything off like she’s the happy-go-lucky poster-child

But you don’t know her soul is screaming because she feels like an exile

She is beaten everyday but all you see is a tired smile

Tired because how can she have time for sleep

When all she hears is the deafening sound of her own weeps

She’s closing her eyes in class when the teacher points to her seat

And scolds her for not paying attention

Assigning yet another detention

The distance is short but still there

You don’t know her story so you don’t care

Her petals are dying but no one is aware

I don’t know all but I know what it feels like to fall

Because heartbreak has a way of getting the best of us all

It’s called heartbreak because it feels like someone is taking out your soul

And stomping on it to later be replaced with a breath of stone cold

After the feeling of falling

We have a hard time loving again

Even when it’s our true soul mate calling

Salt rains down on us to heal the wounds of the past

But salt hurts when it falls into cuts fast

Especially when we’re the ones putting the slits there

We build walls around our soul to keep out the heartbreak

But what we forget to do is build a gate

We foster hate

Because we’re afraid that love will tear us apart

That it will be the end

Our fate

More petals dying everyday

I watch the boy in the window through a glass frame

I see blue eyes filled to the brim with pain

I want to ask him how his soul is doing but I’m too afraid

Because I know what depression looks like

His lips can’t take anymore talking

He just wants to get up and start walking

Away

But he can’t because he can’t find it inside of him to leave the glass frame

Because it’s bulletproof and he’s too afraid

That love will tear me apart

He feels like an anchor tied to the ankle of everyone who knows his story

He doesn’t want the pity or the glory

He wants to be alone to deal with it himself

Along with blue eyes I see dead petals drying on a shelf

Rejection never feels good I’ll tell you

But what feels worse is when it’s for a cause you can’t help

It feels like slipping in a glass shoe you know is going to break

Because once you take the first step in trying to help

It comes back to bite you like snake

And the poison doesn’t immediately kill you

Death comes to mind for a while and you don’t do anything

Why would you try to help yourself when you have nothing to live for

Why not drown in the poison of the world

Everyone else is fighting their own serpents  

They don’t have time to save you

They have to worry about breaking their own glass shoes

Sometimes I look over my shoulder at my people

Who are running from the devil

And wonder how their souls are doing

If they’re running towards their steeples

I’m trapped in my own glass frame

But I built a gate to let out the hate

Now I ask my people to know if they’re at peace or in pain

I don’t want their petals to die on a window sill in vain

With their hearts afraid of love and there minds living enchained

I’ve started to gather a different view of what it means to be depressed

I see it more now that I know what I looks like

It can be beautiful on the outside

But once you close the distance between you and someone who’s opressed

When they tell you their story

That’s when you find out you should have been praising them all this time

With open arms and glory

I don’t know what depression feels like

But I bet it goes something like not eating for an entire weekend

Rather staying in bed for the season

Never finding the strength or having a reason

To live

Because living is hard work and people don’t have the time to lend a hand

They have their own demons knocking down their doors filling their mouths with sand

But depression must feel worse than that

It must feel like falling down floor after floor

And never really reaching anything

A bottomless pit of darkness and once in awhile

If you’re lucky you’ll meet a friendly stranger who wears a smile

But then they’ll keep walking because the kaleidoscope was taken from them as a child

The walls are built higher because people are not something to be relied on

They are all pawns on the chessboard called a universe

And it’s simply not simple

To get better sometimes we have to get worse

Simply Not Simple Reflection

I wrote “Simply Not Simple” last spring for my creative writing class, which was work-shopped by my peers and teacher, Mrs. Ellis. I wrote this poem because I love slam poetry and I wanted to write about something that I don’t have a personal experience with. I have never had depression, but at the time I wrote this poem, I was close with someone who had experienced it. I wanted to shed light on a dark part of society, as well as give a helping hand to people who are dealing with depression. I used references to children in “Simply Not Simple” because depression is often overlooked at a young age. People say things like “It’s just a phase, ” but sometimes people are struggling with deep eternal strife.

After writing this poem, I performed it at a talent show the following summer, and was astounded at the positive feedback I received. After my performance a girl approached me and said she struggled with depression. I talked to her for hours about how poetry has helped her recover. After seeing the impact my poem had on an audience, I decided to create a digital platform to expose the importance of recognizing depression. My video inspiration came from Savannah Brown, a poet who creates videos to portray her work in a powerful way. In Savannah’s poem, “The Madness of Two,” she used a projector to play clips of old horror movies while she sat in front of the screen.

I learned how to use a portable recorder when I recorded my poem, and I started by putting the audio into Audacity. I learned that Audacity can be difficult, so I switched to Final Cut, which was much more user friendly. I found tons of video clips to go along with my poem that I put together for the projector. After my video was complete with edits and transitions, I filmed it with Eric Wescott, my film assistant, in a small meeting room with a white wall perfect for this project.

I used blue lighting to set a tone for the filming room to appeal to viewers’ emotion of sadness. I sat in front of the projector with my notebook and plant. The notebook symbolized myself writing the poem and the plant was used as wabi sabi. I had tried to grow that specific type of plant for months, with no success, but finally my grandmother started a new plant for me, and it’s still alive today. The healthy plant contrasted the topic of depression, but also showed that growth is possible even after an all time low. Just like my grandmother helping me grow the plant, I want “Simply Not Simple” to help people grow away from depression. I wore a shirt that said Zara Woman on it because Zara is a trendy, fast fashion company. This “fast fashion” symbolization is represented in my poem because depression is a heavy topic to comprehend in a short video. I added credits at the end to my amazing advisers, Mrs. Ellis and Mr. Demello, for making this video possible. I learned a lot from making this first video and hope to continue improving my digital artwork.